In my book that I read yesterday in preparation for comps (just under 6 weeks to go, if you're keeping track), So Great a Light, So Great a Smoke: The Beguin Heretics of Languedoc, the author Louise Berhman used the word indefatigable several times to discuss the relentless attitude of this religious movement.
I kept saying it to myself - in part to get the pronunciation correct (it's hard, right?), and in part because I couldn't stop thinking about its meaning.
I like that word a lot, and I wonder if sometimes we are called on to be indefatigable. We practice and practice running, doing long runs, tempo runs, intervals that get faster and faster with each subsequent lap, in the hopes that even as the hours and miles pass, we will not tire. We seek to find the perfect balance in challenging ourselves and improving our threshold, but at the same time not allowing ourselves to burn out from the intensity. It is not easy.
I am trying to carry on in an indefatigable way in my comps preparation. I have been reading a book a day for, well, a while now. I have 15 books left, which puts me right on track to finish reading with 3 weeks to just review. Now, I love reading - obviously. I have picked a profession where that is one of the main tasks. I find myself very fortunate that a regular, normal part of my life involve picking up a book, and getting lost in a world that is new and exciting. But is also hard to keep my attuned to the subtle differences in books on the same field and retain the arguments of each book (of over 100 of them for this test). I feel like I have created an entire filing system in my brain, and right now, there are a lot of filing cabinets! But I am pressing on.
It is like I am in the midst of marathon training. Heavy volume (quite literally - these are big books!), double days, just lots of time being put in. There is that one month of marathon training that pushes you harder than any other time. That is this month in terms of my comps preparation.
We'll look at this week as an example: